Updated: May 3
(It really is all a matter of mind over matter)
I’m now 6 days into a bout of bronchitis and starting to feel as if I can move about more freely without collapsing under the weight of breathlessness.
I can’t say that it took me by surprise.
Even though I have been doing a good deal of work to re-program my worrisome sub-conscious mind, there are apparently still deep-seeded issues at play.
These issues can only come to the surface at the same level of consciousness that created them. What I elegantly crafted for myself were the scenarios that allowed me to go backward in time, about 2 years, when I was hospitalized with pneumonia, so I could feel how terrible I felt at the time I decided that radical change was inevitable. It was do or die.
For the past 2 years, I have been learning and practicing everything I could get my hands on that showed me how to breathe better and to live healthily in an aging body. I’ve been doing very well and was at the point where I felt I could start teaching and helping others who are struggling like I did.
That’s when that old programming that said, “I’m not good enough”, and “I’m not ready” started to force me into behaviors that were just below my awareness. Unknowingly I started to drag my feet, procrastinate, find something else that was more important to do first.
I started to back away from situations that would get me in front of the people I could help and cut myself off from people and things that were helping to move me in the right direction. As these situations built on top of each other, so did the burden of stress and overwhelm.
The overwhelming burdens caused me to forget everything I know about how my breathing could help me to handle the stress, and before I knew it my dysfunctional patterns took over, there I was, in the throes of another avoidable health crisis!
Luckily over the past 2 years, I’ve been diving into the intimate connection between mind and body, spirit and self, the mechanisms of how thoughts create, or the Laws of Attraction and Repulsion.
Another bit of luck – or serendipity – is that I started a course to begin the Science of Mind Practitioner’s Path. The course is called Beyond Limits and follows exactly all the information that has laid itself out in front of me over the past week. I am meant to get to the bottom of this right now. I’m also meant to incorporate these teachings into any teaching I will do.
During the class we learn to do an affirmative prayer process called Spiritual Mind Treatment. Yesterday I asked for a treatment to be done on my beliefs about bronchitis. By the end of the treatment, I was already breathing easier.
There you have it. Change of behavior or habits, which are just subconscious programming, is a change of the thinking that goes into creating it. Until we’re able to uncover the patterns that form the behavior, it will keep recreating itself. Once we find the pattern, or program, we can uninstall it, by uploading a new set of thoughts with our powerful conscious mind.
Right now, I’m feeling so grateful that I was able to spot this pattern and get a new chance with a new mind to do it over better.